Oh my gosh! Is it just me or does it seem like the days are dragging? I feel like I should be doing more, I guess in a way I am nesting but at the same time I know there isn't too much more that I could be doing at the moment. I am planning a fundraiser, promoting my Kapipal Fundraiser page, and making appointments as necessary, but it feels like I am missing something.
Two days ago was Valentine's Day and it was sweet and heartbreaking to see all of my friends and family posting pictures of their children as their Valentines. I am very lucky to have the husband that I do, and I know I will forever have a Valentine in him, but it is hard to stop and be thankful when my heart aches for a second Valentine to love and cherish.
I was asked a while ago if my lack of ability to mother a child was God's way of telling me I am not suppose to be a mom, and this got me thinking, I wonder if this person would have had the same attitude had it been them that could not conceive. Many of you reading have children, could you imagine your life without them? Imagine not getting to hold them for the first time, or their first steps, first day of school. I guess if you do not want kids, this wouldn't seem like a big deal but for 1 in 6 couples that deal with infertility this is our hell. I am not trying to gain sympathy or anything like that, this has just been on my mind the past week and needed to vent.
Two days ago was Valentine's Day and it was sweet and heartbreaking to see all of my friends and family posting pictures of their children as their Valentines. I am very lucky to have the husband that I do, and I know I will forever have a Valentine in him, but it is hard to stop and be thankful when my heart aches for a second Valentine to love and cherish.
I was asked a while ago if my lack of ability to mother a child was God's way of telling me I am not suppose to be a mom, and this got me thinking, I wonder if this person would have had the same attitude had it been them that could not conceive. Many of you reading have children, could you imagine your life without them? Imagine not getting to hold them for the first time, or their first steps, first day of school. I guess if you do not want kids, this wouldn't seem like a big deal but for 1 in 6 couples that deal with infertility this is our hell. I am not trying to gain sympathy or anything like that, this has just been on my mind the past week and needed to vent.